Yesterday my dad went for all his testing! They kept him there from 7 am to 5 pm... poor daddy was SO exhausted last night! Anyways... him and my mom went back to MD Anderson today to receive the results...
Not good... the NEW medication that they put him didn't work. The tumors are quite a bit larger. So now the 3rd option is regular old fashion chemotherapy. He will start that tomorrow morning at 10am. When I found out, I was at work... and of course me being the bag of emotions I am... I lost it. I am trying SOOO hard to be strong for my family, especially my dad, but its so hard when you see your own father, your hero, wasting away in front of your eyes.
A part of me is so incredibly angry at the doctors. WHY didn't they know it wasn't going to work?! we've gone through TWO different kinds of medication and NEITHER one of them helped! WHY the hell didn't they just start with regular chemo?! I don't get it! They're wasting time here! This is my DAD we're talking about! Why don't they care enough!? *sigh*
I have actually prayed all that I can... I don't know how to pray anymore. I am tired... physically and mentally. My mom told me about a scripture that says when you forget how to pray, God takes over. Man I hope that's true! I have completely washed my hands of a situation I, myself, can not control. It eats away at me everyday, but I just have to trust in His will.
Boy, it never seems like I write a happy blog... they're always sad. *sigh* I'm sorry everyone! Thank you ALL SOOOO much for all your prayers up to this point! Please continue your praying... but this time add me to your list so that I may have the strength to deal with what may come. I love you all very much.
I will write more later... Keep reading... and of course as always God Bless!!!
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Don't be mad at the doctor's Megan :-( Everyone's body is so different, they have no idea what will and what will not work. The option they started your dad on probably worked on others, and probably didn't work on just as many. Like most medications, everyone's body accepts or rejects it differently. I'm sorry to hear about your father's new results. My grandfather has colon cancer and has gone through 2 rounds of chemo and he is 72 and doing fair now, so if he can do it your dad will get through it no problem! He's still young and has lots to fight for :-)
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