Looking Up

Well daddy will be done with this round of chemo on Wednesday!!! YAY!!! We're very excited about that! This medication makes him very tired... so he can't wait to have a break! He goes back to MD Anderson on August 5th so they can run more tests like CT Scans and bone scans, etc. We should find out the results by the end of that week! We're very anxious to see if this treatment has had ANY sort of effect on the tumors.

If the medication didnt work... then he will have to go to regular chemo and have a stint in his chest. He is not looking forward to that at all so we're keeping our fingers crossed!

On the up side... he is slowly regaining his taste buds and is able to eat more! He has gained 2 lbs! YAY! He still says that a lot of food tastes like the SMELL of a penny... *gag* but its getting easier for him to eat.

I know I complain a lot about this whole situation... but in all reality I thank God for EVERYDAY He gives me with my daddy. It is truely a blessing! All of us are not promised tomorrow, so when you open your eyes in the morning... take a minute and thank God for giving you another day here on earth! I know I do!

Anyways, I will write more later! Keep reading and keep those prayers going! And as always... GOD BLESS!

More bad news... REALLY?!

*sigh* ok... I have been very busy with family being here for the past two weeks, so thats why I havent written in a while! But a few days ago I over heard my mom talking to my Tia (aunt)... the cancer has spread to his pancreas as well! UGH... fml! I just dont understand why they INSIST on hiding things from me?! I am a big girl... I have prepared for this! Why they choose to keep me in the dark about whats happening is beyond me! I understand that my daddy doesnt want me to know how sick he is... but for all emotional reasons I NEED to know!

I need to know how to pray... and not having all the info keeps me from doing that the way I need to! This is my DAD we're talking about here... not just a random person! If, God forbid, something were to happen to him... I need to be able to prepare for it... not be caught off gaurd!

*deep breath*... I just hate being treated like im 3 years old instead of 23. With Maura passing... I really have seen what cancer can do first hand. Her strength and courage is what keeps me going... so with her on my side, I can do anything! I know shes watching over me and my family!

ANYWAYS... wow it had been a while since I've been able to vent like that! Sorry if I've been debbie downer... it just feels good to let go every once in a while! Well... I will write more later. Keep reading and as always... God Bless!!!