He's such a trooper!

Well as you last read the 2nd round of treatment didnt work and they decided to put him on regular, old fashion chemo. He goes once every two weeks to MD Anderson to recieve the IV and usually also gets a blood transfusion. He also has been taking a form of oral chemo twice a day... yuck! Yesterday was his last day on the oral chemo for a whole week!!! I'm so excited for him! Lord knows he really needs a break!

Hes in high spirits even though he is in so much pain everyday. He is very optomisitc and pushes through everyday despite his weakness. He is still going to work everyday... this came as a shock to his doctor. We all think he needs to stay home and get as much rest as he can, but he says going to work everyday is his way of decompressing and taking his mind off of the fact that he has cancer. I'm very proud of him!

I am still very angry and dont understand why this is happening to my family... but God's plan is perfect and maybe I'm not suppose to understand even though i want to.

Daddy goes back to the doctor in october, until then i will keep you all updated on his condition and spirits! Thank you for all the prayers... we love you all very much!

I'll write more later... keep reading please... God Bless!

When it rains... it pours...

Yesterday my dad went for all his testing! They kept him there from 7 am to 5 pm... poor daddy was SO exhausted last night! Anyways... him and my mom went back to MD Anderson today to receive the results...

Not good... the NEW medication that they put him didn't work. The tumors are quite a bit larger. So now the 3rd option is regular old fashion chemotherapy. He will start that tomorrow morning at 10am. When I found out, I was at work... and of course me being the bag of emotions I am... I lost it. I am trying SOOO hard to be strong for my family, especially my dad, but its so hard when you see your own father, your hero, wasting away in front of your eyes.

A part of me is so incredibly angry at the doctors. WHY didn't they know it wasn't going to work?! we've gone through TWO different kinds of medication and NEITHER one of them helped! WHY the hell didn't they just start with regular chemo?! I don't get it! They're wasting time here! This is my DAD we're talking about! Why don't they care enough!? *sigh*

I have actually prayed all that I can... I don't know how to pray anymore. I am tired... physically and mentally. My mom told me about a scripture that says when you forget how to pray, God takes over. Man I hope that's true! I have completely washed my hands of a situation I, myself, can not control. It eats away at me everyday, but I just have to trust in His will.

Boy, it never seems like I write a happy blog... they're always sad. *sigh* I'm sorry everyone! Thank you ALL SOOOO much for all your prayers up to this point! Please continue your praying... but this time add me to your list so that I may have the strength to deal with what may come. I love you all very much.

I will write more later... Keep reading... and of course as always God Bless!!!